So today has gone really well so far. I didn't go to school today, half because I am still sick from the flu, and half because I am sick from yesterday's binge day. Never. Again.
But anyway, I've had about 47 calories so far today, and I'll probably have a maximum of another 50 tonight, however I'm not sure. I've also looked some more into veganism, vegetarianism etc. I'm going to be a strict vegetarian - no meat, eggs or dairy. Today I have made the switch back to soy milk. I say back to, because I have previously consumed only soy milk however I clearly did not stick to that.
I have a couple of things on my mind right now, after spending some time going through the forums of wheat.net. Mostly, I really related to some threads on ED's and friendships. And how the two just don't blend well together. It's so hard to socialise when I'm always worrying how I look, how my friends think I look, and worst of all - what might I have to eat? That's the biggest fear actually. I can't handle being out of control or having to make a quick decision on what I'll eat, as though it's not that important. And for others, it isn't. But I'm not others. I'm me. Woop-de-fucking-doo.
Anyway, I think I might go make myself a soy tea now. Stay strong,
X
But anyway, I've had about 47 calories so far today, and I'll probably have a maximum of another 50 tonight, however I'm not sure. I've also looked some more into veganism, vegetarianism etc. I'm going to be a strict vegetarian - no meat, eggs or dairy. Today I have made the switch back to soy milk. I say back to, because I have previously consumed only soy milk however I clearly did not stick to that.
I have a couple of things on my mind right now, after spending some time going through the forums of wheat.net. Mostly, I really related to some threads on ED's and friendships. And how the two just don't blend well together. It's so hard to socialise when I'm always worrying how I look, how my friends think I look, and worst of all - what might I have to eat? That's the biggest fear actually. I can't handle being out of control or having to make a quick decision on what I'll eat, as though it's not that important. And for others, it isn't. But I'm not others. I'm me. Woop-de-fucking-doo.
Anyway, I think I might go make myself a soy tea now. Stay strong,
X
Sorry about not getting back to you for so long, I wanted to be sure that I was reading your posts correctly. I have an okay sense of who you are, and, let me be the first one to say this, you are crazy strong. Your willpower is so great. I can't even stop eating for a full day, and you're restricting like this?
ReplyDeleteGirl, you rock. Please get back to me, I'd love to talk to you about yourself!
Amazed,
Minty